TEMPTATION REARS IT'S UGLY HEAD

I should be happy, flattered and all that. But I'm just irritated.

My former PR job called me Friday afternoon, at my newspaper job, where I sit in the middle of a newsroom full of people trained to eavesdrop and butt into other people's business. They offered me almost twice the salary I used to make there to come back to work for them.

My first reaction was to suppress a laugh. When I left that job, I gave them ample opportunity to make such an offer to get me to stay. But it wasn't until after they hired a smelly, strange and inept replacement for me four months later that they decided I was worth it. Well screw them, I thought! Let them see how they fair with ol' Crusty writing their press releases.

After I got off the phone with them, wherein they asked me to think it over for the weekend, I had to explain to my good friend and city editor, who sits right next to me, what the phone call was all about. It was during that conversation I realized ... HOLY CRAP THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY!

Then I remembered all the reasons I left ... the cheering, the corporate politics, the smurfy blue outfits we had to wear on Fridays, and the fact that I really missed journalism. My friends at my old job also reminded me of all the reasons I shouldn't come back.

BUT HOLY CRAP THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY!

I thought of a condo in Mexico, being able to put my niece and step-son through college without selling my internal organs, and of getting a housekeeper (to women, having a housekeeper is the ultimate sign you've made it). I thought of how cool it would be if I could crack that male-dominated ceiling and teach them how a woman can run things. And I pictured telling off a few pig-headed chauvenists along the way.

I have to admit my husband did a bit of dreaming too. We could probably finally fix up our house, or sell it and get a newer one that didn't have plumbing older than we were. We could take more trips, maybe buy a boat.

I got irritable and pissy. Why should I keep having to make this decision? Follow the money or follow my heart ... why can't I follow both? Why should I have to choose? The newspaper was cheap and I had to fight for every scrap of paper and ball point pen. But it was fun and rewarding. The corporate job threw money around like it was confetti. But it wasn't really where my heart was.

I got no sympathy from family and friends, who said that I shouldn't bitch about having two good jobs to choose from. They were right, I guess. I'm just a selfish bitch and want it all.

Oh temptation ... it's such an ugly thing. In the end though, I made the right decision. I couldn't turn my back on my responsibility to the paper, or to my goals of trying to make it better. Well, I could, but I wouldn't feel good about myself. And really, that's what it's all about. Being true to yourself ... even if it means you have to clean your own house.

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